Yesterday at a birthday party for my granddaughter my best friend asked my x husband what he thought of how far I have come. ( I’m good friends with x husband number two and we do have a grown child and granddaughter in common.) He said, “Well, you always wanted to be famous.” And you have done it.
I was surprised that this is what he thought I wanted. I didn’t want to be famous. I wanted to make a living at my art and writing. Notoriety was a part of that equation. It was inevitable. I didn’t seek fame I sought things to feed my soul.
In the conversation, my heart whispered.
“Please God, can I have more time, can I continue to work and grow and achieve some more?” I said these things, feeling pressure in my chest and on oxygen. I have no idea what my future holds. It is time to absorb how far I have come. Rest here and see what happens.
Pusche
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