Sometimes the work of changing our thinking is challenging. At one point I was having a tough time with a group of people in businesses. I could not believe how they were treating me, and what was transpiring. I wanted to call each person, and scream that this was not fair, they were asses, and needed to come to my way of thinking, but I legally could not, and that is probably a good thing.
It was a vortex, or stagnation, either way. I felt stuck taking time with the voices and feeling is always best. It helps to respond and not react. I and all of those who were on my support team were beside ourselves in how to break down the walls that were put up. It was really strange how our words were being misinterpreted, and I felt hopeless and frustrated. So, I examined those feelings, and the feelings I had for everyone. You know they were so intense, I’m not sure I could not have gotten out of that bad space on my own. I felt like there were these huge walls that were put up and there was no way around them. But, remember, I do have a faith, and I do believe that I have what it takes to change the perception of the problem.
If I held on to what I was thinking and feeling it would have done me in. So, I began positive affirmations and acknowledgments about the entire situation and repeated it to myself daily. Any time, anything came up in my mind that was negative I would ward it off with positive thoughts. That should have worked alone, but I struggled. So, I thought, if the walls of Jericho could come down by walking around that city seven times, then I could get these walls to come down by committing to pray for seven days. I decided to make it symbolic by praying in an area that was a representation of the change I wanted. I know I didn’t have to go to this place, but for me it was symbolic, it held emotion and was a commitment, and I have found that tricking the subconscious often has a lot to do with emotions. You must visualize your outcome in all of your senses and get emotional about it. I walked around this area seven times and prayed and thought positive affirmations and acknowledgments. I did not pray curses upon them; I did the opposite. I took every person from this opposition and prayed for them individually. At one point I knew that one man’s wife had cancer and his entire family was laid heavy on my heart. I prayed diligently for him, his wife, and his kids. I prayed for truth. I visualized the outcome I desired. I prayed the walls would come down. When I felt weak, I prayed angels would walk with me. These were tall dudes, with swords and not something you wanted to mess with. I gave them the battle. I prayed my heart would be healed from this.
On day three of this seven days of prayer, it poured. I stopped and got a raincoat from the store and was prepared to walk and pray. Then as I drove up, my car broke down. I simply called triple AA walked in the rain as I waited and prayed. Then I realized that I could not make my commitment because of not having a car. I could have stopped there, but my commitment was more about convincing my subconscious and the universe for me it was a big spiritual thing. I found a friend who knew what I was trying to do and she was kind enough to drive me for the next couple of days while my car was in the shop.
A couple of things happened during this process. The first thing that happened took place before my car broke down. I was driving to a place before this designate prayer. I had decided to continue on with my endeavors to assist with the project in a positive manner that would support the oppositions outcome and that I felt comfortable doing because it supported my core values and beliefs and was something that was in line with my own goals. At one point one person from the opposition questioned it. And appeared angry over it, but I knew my heart and kept going. It was not hurting anyone; it was helping others. On the way that 3rd day I heard a voice in my head that said, “Good job, act like there are no walls.” I thought about that. If you think there are walls, you act in a certain way. On a football team, they have both offense and defense, the players and strategy changes depending on where they are in the game. If you are defense, then you act like defense. This began to make sense to me. I walked through my time of prayer with this new enlightenment.
After the seven days, there was a noticeable change. I would love to say that miracles happened and all was resolved. As I write this, I do believe that things did happen outside of me, and that the prayer and the positive affirmations did make a difference. I have to say I also got others to join me. I walked alone, but I developed my own team who were also praying and believing for positive outcomes. The noticeable change that happened took place inside of me. I had changed my heart toward these people. I felt better-80% better, and confident.
What walls can you pray over. God can work on the outcome and can heal your heart while doing so.
Marching and Praying,
Pusche